Are you doing what makes you come alive?
This is a question I keep coming back to. Am I doing what sets my soul on fire or am simply settling for mediocrity in the name of doing what is comfortable, walking down a path just because it’s the way other’s expect me to go?
Am I really, truly living, fully experiencing both ups and downs, or have I shut down parts of myself in a desperate attempt to protect my deepest parts from the feelings this journey brings up?
Am I noticing all the little things -the way the light wanders across the wall, the way certain words hit me a little deeper than the rest, the way that one chord in a song contains so much emotion it just makes me want to lay down on the floor and be covered by the weight of it all- or am simply drifting, going through the motions, half asleep, half awake?
What about you? Are you here, or has your mind run off to some far away place you imagine being better than where you are right now? Are you experiencing life to the full? Are you doing what makes you come alive?
If I at any point notice myself feeling distant, I take a quiet moment and ask my heart what she needs. How we can reconnect. She tends to be pretty quick to answer whenever I actually give her my full attention.
Usually the needs aren’t even that hard to take care of. “I need to get outside, to walk slowly so I have time to notice all the pretty trees and birds and attic windows.” Or “I need to let some things out. Can we play the piano for a while, or maybe dance?” Or sometimes she just needs me to tell her it’s okay, that I’m here, that I’m proud of her and that I am so grateful she’s stuck it out with me.
I know this whole adressing your heart like a person might feel more than just a little weird to some of you, but I seriously encourage you to try it out. I tend to always see mine as a little girl. Picturing a child helps me be kind.
And i truly belive she lives in there.
I believe there is a child inside of everyone and that, if onlu we let them, they will rise from the depths and teach us what it truly means for you and me to be fully alive, right here, right now.